Relief is hard to come by tonight. Usually, peace and clarity float in small waves but they’ve stopped for a little while. I am forced to sit in this and I can appreciate it’s necessity. Of course, the moment I’m sure I’ve learned a lesson I’m humbled again.
The sweetest moments never last too long. That’s just how these things go… You either 1) begin to take them for granted 2) fuck it up or 3) refuse to accept it’s goodness. Regardless, I have a surprising amount of reverence for it all. The tragedy of not understanding how to fix something that probably never should have been in the first place. I didn’t listen. I don’t care because I’m grateful for feeling it, all of it… Walking away knowing that I got something rare, even through all of it’s heartbreaking confusion.
It’s just how these things go…
